LOSING.... but because of that way.

Why did this have to happen?
It seems like i can never get a freakin break.
I was hoping to see my friend Logan this weekend
Because havent seen her in like forever,
But no I didnt even get to say goodbye to her.
I wish i could have done soemthing.
Everytime i talked to her she seemed fine,
but she was not.
How could i have not seen that?

In some way i feel like it is my fault
because i didnt notice it....

WHy does this always happen to me?

A life i want to follow

I have been having a rought time with som stuff but now that i have found the lord again i am doing alot better. I got back to the point i was because i got to thinking about ashley alot lately. I need to not do that so much.

Thoughts in my head.

There are so many things going through my head right now, it seems like it wont ever stop spinning. From Guys to softball to school to jsut random things. I really hate it. I cant think straight at all anymore.
Since the break up everything has just gone down hill.. I honestly dont know what i am going to to do now. Broken hearts take time to heal but there is really only one thing that can heal my broken heart. YOU!!!!

Since that little thing called High School

Since high school, i think life has gotten alot better. I have met so many people that its confusing. I thinki have found myself. Liek i never have before. I have come out of my little comfort zone that i have been in because in my hometown. Everyone knows everyone and how they find you the first time is how you will be for the rest of your life. And here at College "home" it is like you can just start over fresh because no one knows who you are.

Till later this is
college GIRL!

first night of the new experience

First night at school... it was do different. Just will take time to get use to. But it was good... more about it tomorrow.. night night time for me.

The end is coming.. with a new beginning

So this is really starting to hang on my shoulders now. I leave in 2 days.. can you believe it. it is coming so soon. I want to just scream. i am getting so nervous... I dont think i am ready now. i want to leave but i am not ready..

the things i do for you..

Why is it that everytime you tell me one ting, and i do it, then you get mad. It hurts. I change everything around for you and then you dont like when i do. i do things for you and you dont appreciate them. Do you really love me?
in 10 days this wont be happening. But i will still love you.
I will always love you